Crazy Lessons in L♥VE

Hey everyone... I have been thinking about a lot of things lately and it's crazy because I haven't blogged about love any where in a long time... going on about 6 to 7 months to be specific and of course I have never blogged about love on here before so it's definitely a first for you guys. To get straight to the point, I have had sooo much shit on my mind lately about love and relationships and can shit that hasn't worked in the past actually work after a person says they have "changed". I mean don't get me wrong I'm not saying that the other person is totally to blame and that I haven't done things that I am not proud of... but I'm saying that it didn't end because I did something. Lately I have noticed that shit between me and an ex have changed tremendously and it kind of makes me a little sad to be honest. Not because I want him back though... and I hate to say it but it's because I can never picture him with someone else. I know that sounds really bad... but yeah I don't want him but I'm not tryna hear bout him with other bitches.... sorry for the language but it's what's real. We had a conversation last week I think and he told me he had been fooling around and fucking chicks and shit and I was mad about that. I know that we have grown apart and what was can never be again but still it's mad hard to hear bout that kind of thing. I know in my heart that i still have feelings for him but at the same time I know that we are not good for each other... I have tried to maybe start things with other people but no one makes me feel how he made me feel there are no sparks and the attraction is just not there... I can't imagine what a relationship with someone else would be like. I know that I need to realize that I deserve much better than what I had in the past and I know that he was definitely not a great boyfriend to me ... but it's kind of like a drug. The fighting, the cussing, the hurtful words, the pain, the tears, the break-ups to make-ups and starting all over again was like a drug that I became so addicted to. Now everything that I come across that is functional and can possibly work I push it aside and call it boring... I guess maybe for now Im not ready... I guess maybe for now I need to be on my dolo. I know that I have matured and I'm not the same girl I was when I was 19 and 20 and felt like the love I had for him ran deeper than my soul and I have moved on and I know that I don't want to be with him... but it's crazy cuz now how can I muster the courage to possibly be with someone else??? I was hurt and yeah I kept it to myself to save face... I just hope now... I'm not scarred for life...

Random Thoughts... Craziness...

Hey everyone!!! So since the last post many things have happened and this is just a lil update on the things that have happened... soooo

I have seen a couple movies most of which were really good... Cadilac Records yes wit Beyonce' not too bad... I liked her performance in this movie much better than anything else I have seen her in...but Dreamgirls was definitely a better movie... but I digg the movie because I love Etta James and Beyonce' did her thing wit the music I have always loved her voice and yeah... Im loving you girl!!! LOL! Im talking bout Beyonce'. I also saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons... OHHH EEEMMM GGGEEEE!!!! I loved that movie it was funny and had a great story to it ... A love that can stand the test of time... A lil cheesy yeah I know but work with me here. It kinda reminded me of the lesson behind The Notebook a lil bit but just as much as I loved that one I loved this one. I also saw Seven Pounds which was good as well. Will Smith is one of my favorite actors and I kinda always enjoy what hes in... but he seems to have this kinda crazy/weird look to him in the last couple movies hes in like this thing he does with his face, I dont kno LOL maybe Im thinking to hard...

I spent Christmas with my family on my dads side... it was good... I had time to bond and connect with fam that I dont get to see very often... I didnt do much on New Years Eve because things didnt go the way I wanted them to go but its cool Im not really complainin.... I still have been enjoying my time @ home wit my fam.

I turned 22 on Friday... Januray 2nd, Im getting old so quickly LMAO! Im jokin but yeah 2008 went by so quickly but 2009 is my year... I graduate from college I hopefully will get a good job to start my career... I got a very good internship.... in event planning and marketing which is something Im very interested in... Things seem to be falling into place IM happy about that.

Well thanx, I hope everyone enjoyed their holiday no matter what you celebrate... Im out.. ya digg...

Christmas/ New Years

So the holidays are approaching... and I dont kno maybe Im in some kind of funk or something just today I haven't been feeling it u kno??? Like just ugh all day but whateva I guess I needa just get ova myself or whateva..
But back to the point and reason for this blog... I mean the holidays are approaching and Im kinda excited to see my fam and friends who I haven't seen since the last time I was home. Im so in the mood for mac and cheese and hugs and kisses from ppl who I love. My New Years was supposed to b on point but it looks like our plans might have fallen through... Im kinda disappointed about cuz I was lookin forward 2 hangin out wit my girls, but everything happens for a reason... and God will it... its not like Im neva gonna see them again, right??? So its all good by me. OOHHHH yeah so in 11 days I turn 22 I wasnt really excited b4 but since everybody feels the need 2 shove it down my throat... the excitement is now building lol.... OOHHH and b4 I forget... Im thinkin of startin my locs... it kinda depends on my money situation... so if it happens expect pics soon.... well expect my holiday/vacation pics anyway... I wanna make sure I capture the happiness and togetherness that GOD blesses me with this holiday season... Thanx and see u guys when I return Lata

The Last Couple Days...

Soo first of all Happy Belated Thanksgiving to all... I hope everyone had a great time wit fa and friends and all... I enjoyed myself spending time with one of my closest friends. Im very appreciative, she invited me in2 her home and I had a good time wit her and her fam.

So... let me talk about work 4 a lil bit... If I dont find a new fuckin job ASAP I swear 2 goodness someone is goin 2 get cussed the hell out.... WHEWWWW ok Im glad I got that off my chest. LMAO I work n retail/customer service is all I will say right now . However it is sooo true that ppl can b so fuckin unbelieveably stupid and have the audacity 2 think they r right... or not in the wrong I should say. This is the first day I have had off since the start of the week... and for that I am TRUELY grateful now I have time 2 do much needed cleaning and maybe even get some of the homework that has piled up for school yyaaaayyyy me... but all is cool its fine by me seriously...

So did anyone read about the guy who worked for Wal-Mart who got fuckin ran over by a bunch of crazy ass bargain shoppers and killed?? I was like "WHATTTTT?" True story lmao.... but yeah thats wild ppl really need 2 prioritize... Life or $70 camera I mean seriously lol.... I jus wanted 2 mention that because I was sooooo disappointed at the details. 2 this story. Just google it... Im not doin more work 2 get u details lmao... read up on it yaself. lol

Lastly, I remember this tradition 4 my fam around Thanksgiving and we havent done this in a long time... we would tell what we r grateful 4... sooo I will end this wit tellin u what I am and have been very thankful of anf for this past year of 2008...
I am and have been thankful for/of....

• my family, even when I dont call... or dont feel like talkin u still put up wit my moodswings....
• my friends (true friends) u guys r always there 4 me and allowing me2 b who I am around u I HEART u guys
• my job, eventhough I hate u lol u make it possible 4 me 2 do what I want daily thanx
  
• my education, I am truely grateful 4 my school and my expensive ass education... thanx 4 makin life easier 4 me eventually n life

Thanx 4 tunin n 2day... latas

My INTROduction

So what up world??? I guess this is me introducing myself to the world wide web.... or maybe its not that deep but WHATEV' ... I'm just here to give my thoughts and a lil incite into my small piece of the world... which probably seems a lot bigger to me than you. Get it? Got it? Good...

Ok so moving on to more pressing matters... my intro...
Hey Im Sade... and Im currently a senior in college... Yes... I will b graduating college soon... yayyy me Im grown now... I attend a art school.. and Im majoring n fashion marketing jus gettin my market on and stuff lol
Im into fashion, music, photography, art... and lots and lots of other things.... u have any questions???
hit me up
welcome 2 my world... u may not like it but I LIVE it.... Ya digg?? Im out peace...